thoughts

i went outside cause my heart hurt and i talked to the stars, at first i was angry and i was mad that they had taken my love away and i whispered up to them with tears streaming down my face

“how could you make me fall in love with someone like that and rip them away from me?” “how could you”

my love has been sad, very sad, their heart is as broken as mine because we’re apart, but i can’t fix their sadness- my tears ceased and my my anger was turned into melancholy pleading

”please, let this be over soon. I can’t do anything to help them when i’m so far away, and they’re so sad..i can’t deal with that”

i just want them to know i’m here and that i love them but without holding them close it’s so hard to communicate even with the sweetest words- i begged the stars

“if the universe is listening to this sad boy, one of probably billions, please just let them be safe, make sure they’re okay and safe. i’d give anything for just that”

my heart hurts so much knowing that the universe probably wasn’t even listening. but it was the only thing i could think of to let the emotions out.

i texted them afterwards and we facetimed until they had to turn their phone in- i could tell that they were sad but i think hearing my voice must have helped a little bit, as hearing their voice helps a lot for me

if you’ve stayed this far through this rant, thank you- it’s nice for someone, you or the stars, to listen

stay safe, feel free to leave anything you need to get off your chest in the comments

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